DAY 3: The First Time I...

Taken in 2008 before my trip to Seattle

The first time I heard the word Cushings, I was scared.  Another "C" word that meant tumor in my body that I could die from. I was in denial for a long time that I could have this.  I just didn't feel I had a lot of the symptoms.  I wasn't fat because of this disease, I was fat because I was an emotional eater. I didn't get much sleep because I was a mom who was worried about her kids.  The stretch marks were bad because I was overweight!  My face broke out and was oily because my menstrual cycle was crazy!  You see where my thoughts went!

After I got back from Cushie Camp, where I got all high results, I realized just how in denial I was.  I had this horrible disease, but it wasn't going to kill me.  I was going to beat it.  I jotted down all the symptoms I had and even some that I wasn't sure were related.  Who would've thought that plantar fasciitis was a symptom of cushings??  But it was.  It's totally gone now since my surgery.  I have lost all those symptoms of Cushings tho.  It's not such a scary word anymore, because there is something after it that's not death.  While Cushings has taken it's toll and my body is not completely the same as it was 10 years ago, it's better than it was with Cushings.